I didn't hear the milkman at 5am.

 I didn't hear the paperboy at 6am, trundling past with his shopping trolley full of today's news.

 For the past year I have heard these early morning sounds every morning, without fail. They are lovely sounds, heralding the start of a new day much like the bird chorus, but I must say I have recently found myself wishing I was still in the land of nod.

 And so it was bliss to be woken this morning at 6.30am after a full near 6 hours sleep.

 There is much to be said for controlled crying. It is the VERY last resort. Just a quick google and you can see how contentious the matter is. But after trying everything else (The No Cry Sleep Solution etc etc) I, sorry, we, decided to give it a go. It breaks my heart but my health is suffering now and we really just can't carry on with such little/no sleep. It is a form of torture after all.


I really hope that we have made a slight breakthrough.  I felt like a new woman this morning and full of hope that things may now change.  I can begin my life again without feeling like I am living in a dream world all the time.  Feeling guilty that none of my children are receiving 'enough of me' because I am so dog tired.

Hope it wasn't a 'one - off'!!

ps.  thank you for my two lovely comments about my valentines cushion.  and the winner is . . . . . . .  . . . .







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Love is in the air.

As the 14th Feb creeps up on us I have decided to share the love with my readers.

See that lovely little cushion sitting on my windowsill?

I made that today, its so lovely.  If you send me a comment for this post I will put your name into the hat and you might win the lovely little valentine cushion.

Let the cushion see the comments! (oh dear, Damion, you may be good looking but you really bombed tonight!)

xx

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As I sit down to write my post I am am struck by one thing.  I can hear the clock ticking.  Phew.  I cant remember the last time I heard that.  And I am under no false impressions that it will last long.

Heres hoping that I will be in bed by midnight tonight.

As I sit down to write my post I am also texting my middle man.  Who sends me texts while hes watching big sis swim to say he loves me.  Note to self; its all worth it.

Heres hoping for no swimming accidents tonight.

As I sit down to write my post I am trying not to think about the millions of other things I should be doing.

Heres hoping you are doing what you want to do too, and not the millions of other things.

xx

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Life is very very hard at the moment. I hate to admit it, it being 2012, my year! But, not only are we facing our main, only wage earner being out of a job end of march, we have a very very unhappy baby at night. And I am at the very end of my tether. I just don't know what to do. Is there some underlying problem as to why she won't sleep or is it that I am just a really bad mummy? Babies can't tell you what's wrong, and no matter what books/people say Im not tuned into what she's trying to tell me. It is utterly soul destroying and I can feel myself getting more and more down. Believe me it takes quite a lot nowadays to bring me down, fighting cancer last year I'm surprised how mere lack of sleep is affecting me.

another hat for a friend

Oooh. Its big enough to snuggle under whilst it grows.  Lovely in this freezing weather!

The middle man was asking if he could wrap it around himself tonight.  'Its so cosy Mum'.

Bless.  I told him he can have it if he wants.  Baba knows no different, I can make her something else.

Little boys are so kind to their mummies sometimes.

five lovely children

How wonderful and lovely is this label?

Especially when its sewn into a beautiful birthday gift, for me!

My friendships are very very important to me.  They save my sanity. I cannot go a single day without some

sort of 'friend contact'.

But this label got me thinking.

It got me thinking that I love labels in general.

Heres a few of my favorites:

There are so many more too, just not enough time.
Vintage, personal, new, I love pretty labels, do you?

Sweet dreams

xx

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Cruising shoes.

Ever so cute.

Today we bought number three her first pair of shoes.

Although I love shoes and have been itching to buy her a pair I actually don't believe little babies should get shoes too early. We only bought a pair because of the amount of slippy accidents we've had recently.

Wooden floors. Bet babies wouldn't choose them.

Heres hoping for less bumps!

On the crafty front, my year long blanket for baby is growing, slowly!

Stripy, stripy, day by day. I feel lucky if I get one row a day completed.

It will be a single bed blanket someday soon.

Probably just in time for the move to a 'big bed'.

xx